More Amy
May 18, 1999
The last time I updated this site, I let the world know that Amy and I were back together.
She didn't stick to her ultimatum, and I'm glad. I don't know what I would do without her.
So, how did I meet her? How did I get in good with her? How did I get laid? How am I keeping the relationship alive?
We met through a mutual friend. We went to a few basketball games, and she talked to me. We wound up talking through the whole game. I did not talk to her any differently than I talk to any other chicks, including the ones I was "after."
She called me, and we talked a bit about stuff, and eventually we got into religion. Amy is much more religious than I am, but then again you probably are, too. I kept twisting her words on her, and she hated me for it (but in a good way.)
We lost touch for a little bit, and then she called me out of the blue, and we started hanging out. That's all there was to it, really.
I don't know why she picked me, but in actuality, that's what it is. She picked me. I really didn't pick her. I figured she was just a cool person to hang out with. And now I love her to death. She's great.
For a while, we were fuckbuddies, and she wanted to take it a step further. I didn't, because I'm a guy, and commitment scares all men. I asked her to give me some time to make up my mind.
I talked with my sister, and she said, "You have it good with Amy. You always said you want someone who likes you for you, and you have that and you're thinking about losing it?"
What could I say? She was right.
Amy and I have our problems, but they are usually only minor. Ever since I committed to her, we have not had a fight that lasted for more than a few hours.
One thing she doesn't like to do is tell me exactly how she feels. I hate this. She'll give me a cold shoulder, or just be short with me, whereas when I'm mad, I tell her exactly what I'm feeling. I've complained to her time and time again about not telling me in straight English how she feels, and she is making an effort to change. She's not used to complete honesty from most people.
I don't want to end this rant by saying there is hope for all of you, because really I just got lucky. There was no real trick to meeting her and getting good sex and a good relationship, except that I had the opportunity to use her and brush her aside, and I didn't do that. I was too smart for that.
Honestly, she's part of the reason I don't update this site as much anymore. However, I am still really jaded and cynical when it comes to chicks. I still hate the way most of them have fucked with my head and wasted my time; time that I can never get back.
I can say this, though- I'd much rather deal with the ups and downs of my relationship with Amy than have to try to hit on a chick again.