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So...this is it, my diary. Read it but don't think that I'm odd...ok? |
12.17.99
My last night in Kasling Hall for a month. Everyone has already left and it seems like I'm here alone. I mean there are a few people here but not in my suite and my closest friends have already left. I miss them all already. I think that the reason that I miss them so much rightnow is that I'm sitting here alone. It really sucks. I'm just waiting for someone to call me...to give me something to do...someone to talk to. I sound so pathetic right now and I apologize for that. Well...I going home tomorrow morning. I have mixed feeling about this but I've talked about this before and I really don't want to get into it again. I'm just nervous about it and let's just leave it at that. I just wanted to let you all know that I'll continue to update these pages while I'm at home. I'll keep everone informed on what's going on with me and what I'm thinking and all that. I LOVE YOU GUYS and I'm going to miss you tons and tons. Have good vacations...be safe and have fun. :)
12.21.99
Well...I've been home for a few days now. It's...OK. I'm not that bored yet and I'm getting some well deserved rest. I'm actually alright being here. I've gotten a lot accomplished...I bought a new flute which is VERY exciting...I finished my christmas shopping and that makes me happy and I've gotten to sleep. So all in all the past few days have been good. I haven't had anything really philosophical on my mind lately so I'm at a loss of things to write here but I swear...soon enough I'll get to my usual heavy thinking and you will once again be entertained. Just give me a few days to sleep. :)
12.24.99
Merry Christmas Eve everyone. I remember when this day use to mean something. When I was younger it meant so much to me and my family. I can remember all the excitement that came along with the fact that Christmas was so close. But now, I don't feel anything close to that...I honestly don't think that I feel anything at all. I came to a conclusion today. I think that Christmas Spirit comes in spirts. See...all kids have that energy and excitement that comes along with Christmas. Then I think that once you get to be my age, you loose some of that. The problem is that I'm at school for so much of the preparations that go along with Christmas that it seems to just creep up on you. But I do think that the Christmas spirit return to you when you get older and settle down or have kids of your own. Seeing that excitement that you felt once in the face of the people who you love has to get you excited too. How else to parents do it? I hope that you don't all think that I'm a grinch this year cause I don't think that I am. I just realized today that I grew up.
12.25.99
Merry Christmas!! It's been a good day for me. It was really good day actually. It was almost perfect. I use that word almost on purpose. I mean if things were perfect...we wouldn't strive for a tomorrow, right? Anyway...I realize how much I really do have today. I mean...I have the greatest two best friends in the entire world. I love them and I know that they love me just as much. And then I have so much in other ways. I guess I just never sat back and realized how lucky I am. I just complained about what I don't have instead of being happy about what I do have. I guess that's what Christmas does to you... |
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